After Virgin Suicides

Love. Sex. Passion. Obsession. Fear. Death...



潮湿的 灰兰色的空气 呼吸到一种忧郁和不安
感觉有东西陨落 像镜子破碎迸裂的钢琴声
世界忽大忽小
我变成了万花筒中一片彩色的碎纸
翻转闪亮的身体 竭力展现自己
从看者眼睛感觉到的美丽
没有镜子的时候我永远不知道
自己只是一片颜色暗淡 渺小的 单薄的碎纸
生活是个阴谋 在我们出生之前已经策划好
就好象每个阳光明媚的下午都蕴 ** 世间的残忍

Everyone dated the demise of our neighborhood from the suicides of the Lisbon girls.
People saw their clairvoyance in the wiped-out elms and harsh sunlight.
Some thought the torture tearing the Lisbon girls pointed to a simple refusal to accept the world as it was handed down to them:
So full of flaws.
But the only thing we are certain of after all these years is the insufficiency of explenation.

"Obviously doctor, you've never been a thirteen year-old girl."

The Lisbon girls were 13, Cecillia, 14, Lux, 15, Bonnie, 16, Mary, and 17, Therese.
No one could understand how Mrs. Lisbon and Mr. Lisbon, our math teacher, had produced such beautiful creatures.

From that time on, the Lisbon house began to change.
Almost every day, and even when she wasn't keeping an eye on Cecilia,
Lux would suntan on her towel wearing a swimsuit that caused the knife-sharpener to give her a 15-minute demonstration for free.

The only reliable boy who got to know Lux was Trip Fontaine
For only 18 months before the suicides had emerged from baby fat
To the delight of girls and mothers alike.

But few anticipated it would be so drastic.
The girls were pulled out of school, and Mrs. Lisbon shut the house for maximum security isolation.
The girls' only contact to the outside world was through the catalogs
They ordered that started to fill the Lisbon's mailbox with pictures of high-end fashions and brochures for exotic vacations.
Unable to go anywhere, the girls traveled in their imaginations:
To gold-tipped Siamese temples or past an old man, the leaf broom tidying the maw carpeted speck of Japan.
And Cecelia hadn't died. She was a bride in Calcutta.

Collecting everything we could of theirs, we couldn't get the Lisbon girls out of our minds, but they were slipping away.
The colours of their eyes were fading, along with exact locations of moles and dimples.
From five, they had become four, and they were all, the living and the dead, become shadows.
We would have lost them completely if the girls hadn't contacted us.

Lux was the last to go.
Fleeing from the house, we forgot to stop at the garage.
After the suicide free-for-all, Mr. and Mrs. Lisbon gave up any attempt to lead a normal life.
They had Mr. Hedly pack up the house, selling what furniture he could at a garage sale.
Everyone went just to look.
Our parents did not buy used furniture, and they certainly didn't buy furniture tainted by death.
We of course took the family photos that were put out with the trash.
Mr. Lisbon put the house on the market, and it was sold to a young couple from Boston.

It didn't matter in the end how old they had been, or that they were girls.
But only that we had loved them, and that they hadn't heard us calling; still do not hear us.
Calling them out of those rooms where they went to be alone for all time. alone in suicide,
Which is deeper than death,
And where we will never find the pieces to put them back together.


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4 Responses to After Virgin Suicides

  1. pencetoi () says:

    其实已经是死了的,却总以为还活着,
    目前这个世界原本就是为了另一个世界的死者而设立的。
    另一个世界里,生命有1000年,觉得好沉闷,过了200多年就自杀了,解脱了吧,结果掉到这个更糟糕的乱世中,弄的只有100年可以活了,自然更难以接受,20多年就不想玩儿了,这回能掉那儿去?掉10年生命期的那个呗。如此类推,久而久之,死而死之。生命越来越短,还挺能体会什么是生,什么是死?变成没有生命期限的虚无是早晚的事儿。到那份儿上就真可以算是修成正果了。一了百了。

    祝能睡个好觉
    一个的一个

  2. dirtythree says:

    欢迎

  3. 匿名博友 says:

    背景音乐非常好听。真是个很棒的地方!!
    以后经常报道了!!

  4. 比起你的blog,自己的好幼稚
    很喜欢你的音乐和文字
    我已经做了link
    以后会常来

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